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[respirations]

EDDIE KASPBRAK it: chapter 2 voice strength: ★★★★★ shipping: i'm reddie trash but i'm also all about that platonic love with the other losers preferences: gen, smut, shippy, angst, au, cross-canon, slice of life. notes: for some fun starting points: some random assortment of memes and aus for days; feel free to go the other worldly route; also throw pics or random sentences at me and a kink generator because why not. hit me up for starters if you'd like. there's no crying in baseball but there is crying in my rp but let's have fun, ok. picture prompts • quote prompts • music prompts • etc

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[respirations]

I'm not though. I should have just ignored all that shit and the pictures, I should have believed you but I just got so freaked out that I thought: Obviously, I did something to make this happen. It's my fault if Richie leaves and finds someone else because why wouldn't he? Who wants someone so messed up as me?

( He moves to sit back down as Richie applies the ice pack on his ankle. The hiss of pain isn't so much from where the other is touching his leg but finally everything catching up to him after his stupid ass had to run through the fucking Barrens. There's a smile on his lips as he maneuvers another bean bag over so his ankle can be elevated and almost laughs but ultimately reaches up to catch Richie's wrist, drawing him closer. )

I really do love you, Richie. That's the one thing that always made sense to me is how much I love you.

[foul_mouthed]

I shouldn't have went behind your back in the first place. I guess that does make me look pretty shitty in the whole situation. (No wonder Eddie assumed he was lying about the pictures, the whole party in general. Richie had been an idiot, he was thinking of himself in that moment and by doing so he sacrificed the trust Eddie had given him, soiled their relationship.) I do. (It's a raw and honest answer. One spoken from deep within Richie's heart.) You're all I want. I can't fucking stop thinking about you, Eds. It drives me crazy sometimes. I'm surprised my dick isn't raw from all the beating off.

(It's pathetic.

He makes a soft noise as Eddie captures his wrist, his body moving along with the soft tug.)

I love you too, Eddie. So damn much.

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We both made mistakes, it's okay. It's better that we learn from them, right? ( They both had a lot to learn but wasn't that a big part in growing up? Weren't they allowed to make mistakes now. Eddie likes to imagine that its better for them to make them now than in the future when they're older and more set in their own ways. ) How romantic, Richie.

( He ultimately rolls his eyes but smiles nevertheless, tightening his hold and urging the other boy closer. ) I can't stop thinking about you either though. Sometimes I think my heart is going to explode because whenever I do, I just fucking feel so much.

( There's a moment of quietness before he tugs at Richie's wrist again without a thought (or care) toward the cold lingering around them. )

I missed you so much. I, uh— let me make it up to you and let me make you feel good. You're always taking care and worrying about me but let me take care of you this time.

[foul_mouthed]

So you don't hate me anymore? (Richie wants to make all his wrongs right, he doesn't want Eddie to lose his trust in him especially considering Eddie has been lied to most his childhood. Richie doesn't want to be another person Eddie despises or loses faith in. They have both risked so much to be together like this in secret, Richie doesn't want their love to slip through their fingertips.) I prefer your hand though, I like it when you play with my dick. You give really amazing head too, like really amazing.

(He knows he's rambling like a fool but these weeks without Eddie have been brutal, difficult and lonely. He's missed waking up with Eddie cuddled tight against him, their late night drives around Derry and back seat makeouts. ) Me too, Eds. I never want that feeling to go away.

(Once again he moves with the eager pull, his hands going out to rest along each side of the bean bag in order to not squish his little Eds. His eyes go soft at Eddie's offer but right now Richie doesn't deserve much of anything. He just wants to wrap Eddie in some blankets and hold him close. )

You've got a sprained ankle, Eds. I think you need to rest for a bit. I know its gotta hurt like a bitch and I know you've got to be freezing. You damn chicken nugget.

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I never hated you, Rich. I was just upset. ( Even if all those things had been true, he doubts that he could ever or would ever hate Richie. They'd been through so much together not just as friends but together as boyfriends too. Richie was his first for some many things they he didn't want to ever forget. ) Glad to know you've got priorities when it comes to missing me.

( He rolls his eyes but there is the faintest hint of a smile there. Eddie knows that Richie is just running at the mouth and he moves his hand from around the other boy's wrist to his hand proper to their fingers can lace together. He's in prime wanting to be squished mode currently and makes sure that Richie is damn aware because (honestly) Rich is a damn personal heater while being just big enough to leech from. )

Yeah, Rich— it's my ankle. I can still do other things, you know. I just wanna forget for a little while that these two weeks even happened.

[foul_mouthed]

Really? (It sure felt like Eddie had. Richie hadn't meant to upset his boyfriend and it sure as hell was not going to become a habit. ) I didn't mean to upset you, Eds. I'm sorry that I did, I never want to hurt you. (Too many people in Eddie 's life held that title and Richie wanted to be the person Eddie could rely on, experience real love with. ) I can't help it that you're really great with my dick.

(He makes another soft noise as Eddie crushes himself against his chest, his smaller body tucked close against Richie's own. He can't help but to smile and nuzzle against Eddie's hair. ) We should get your tiny ass under some blankets, you're fucking freezing and don't say you aren't. (There is also the fact that Eddie's mom has probably stroked out because her precious baby boy hadn't made it home.)

Me too but I know you've got to be in some fucking pain, Eds. (He leans forward to gently press a kiss against the smaller boy's forehead. ) I love you, little shit.

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Really. I love you so much, Rich. I didn't know what to do with myself half of the time. ( He had felt lost and adrift without Richie in his life. Eddie just can't imagine what it would be like for them to really separate and be apart especially if they both ended it hating one another. It might be selfish but he never wants for that to happen and he never wants for them to be apart. ) Yeah, well, it helps that I really like you.

( Eddie just huffs as Richie continues, a frown on his features. ) I'm fine, really. It's not so bad down here and it's not like we got to rush either. Mom thinks I'm staying the night at Bill's place.

( A brow is raised as he listens, breathing out a slow sound and shaking his head. )

Then let's just stay here for a little while. Once I get home, mom is going to lose her shit and drive me straight to the hospital. She probably won't let me out of her sight for another week. ( He says with a frown and then a blush. ) I love you too, Trashmouth.

[foul_mouthed]

I love you too, Eds. These past few weeks have been such shit, not having you speak to me really fucked with my head and heart, I felt so fucking hollow and alone without you. ( Richie might be getting a little deep with the conversation but Eddie wanted honesty. He doesn't want to think about a life with Eddie absent from it, the thought alone makes his stomach turn. Eddie is all he wants, nothing else really matters. (They had made future plans together, those that got them the hell out of Derry for good. ) You really like my dick? (He asks with a playful waggle of his eyebrows. )

Is that a request to stay with me tonight? (If not Richie would gladly make it a suggestion. They would have so much privacy if they happened to stay here in the clubhouse or headed back to Richie's place. )

You wanna stay here or would you like to go back to my place? You can stay the night with me if you want or I can drive you to Bill's. Either choice we need to get you comfortable and under some blankets. I can hold you close if you want too, keep you snug and warm?