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EDDIE KASPBRAK it: chapter 2 voice strength: ★★★★★ shipping: i'm reddie trash but i'm also all about that platonic love with the other losers preferences: gen, smut, shippy, angst, au, cross-canon, slice of life. notes: for some fun starting points: some random assortment of memes and aus for days; feel free to go the other worldly route; also throw pics or random sentences at me and a kink generator because why not. hit me up for starters if you'd like. there's no crying in baseball but there is crying in my rp but let's have fun, ok. picture prompts • quote prompts • music prompts • etc

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Richie doesn't want Eddie's relationship with him to be just as miserable as it was with Myra, he wants his boyfriend to be happy and if anyone in this shitty as world deserved some fucking happiness it was Eddie. Life has dealt him nothing but misery and shit, Richie doesn't want to be yet another negative. He would always love Eddie but if the other man might need some space, time to be alone Richie would understand, he would respect it. All he would want was for Eddie to come back if he wanted. They had already lost twenty-seven years of being together. Richie didn't want to lose anymore, not when they made it this far.

They were going to have their own issues and struggles, what couples don't? What was important was the fact that Richie wasn't going to place all the blame on Eddie, he wasn't going to toss him aside when Eddie needed him the most and he sure as fuck wasn't going to make Eddie feel like he wasn't loved.

Both Myra and Eddie's mother had torn him down in ways that weren't going to heal over night, if all but that didn't stop Richie from trying his damn best to build his boyfriend back up. Eddie is worth a whole lot more than the women in his life have allowed him to be and he deserves more, deserves fucking better. He wasn't going to stand back and allow Eddie to blame himself for his terrible marriage coming to an end, Eddie had nothing to blame himself for.

He had given every bit of himself.

They both have their own demons to battle, Richie still has his own struggles that weigh him down. One being the fact that it had taken him this long to accept his homosexuality, brutal and harsh years of denying who he truly was. He's only ever loved one, no one else has ever mattered or compared. That person was and will always be Eddie.

That's why he's letting these words slip from his lips. Words that can impact their whole relationship. He's chest grows tight at Eddie's silence and his stomach twists in painful knots that leaves him feeling a bit nauseated. Had he said too much? Did Eddie not love him in return? His boyfriend's flushed cheeks has him grinning like an idiot and Eddie's returned love had his heart skipping beats.

"I've always loved you, you little shit", he laughs before pulling Eddie's small form to his chest. "That's never going to fuck change."