❪ with a deep breath, eddie finishes off what is left of his drink and leans back into the couch. rattled, it seems, was a good word but the alcohol was doing wonders to take the edge off of his shaky feelings. well, anyway, up until their knees bump and eds finds himself locking up again. ❫

I told her I was in love with someone else. ❪ he says suddenly without prompt and wishing he hadn't finished his drink so quickly again. ❫ Everything that happened in Derry and everything I fucking remembered, I just couldn't put it into words. I couldn't make it make any real sense of it for anyone outside of us.

❪ he sighs and brushes his hair back slightly. ❫ It seemed easier this way.