❪ and he really does have to take that delay to reign himself back in. everything still feels hypersensitive from delaying his own finish that he has to close his eyes briefly, shake his head and try to clear his thoughts so eddie might better focus on richie as he moves to occupy the space behind him.
he tries to time his breathing with the sound of the waves outside and relaxes in the cool night breeze as he leans back into rich, tilting his head just enough that they might kiss properly in this position. god— he'd never get enough of this and perhaps that was for the best.
after all, love had always been a little harder for eddie to completely understand. harder to grasp since the "love" he had experienced before rich had been so grossly one-sided. sometimes he still worries that he lacks certain qualities that make him worthy of being loved so deeply by someone. sometimes he worries that he isn't giving near enough back or that he might come off distant as he tries to navigate how to express how he feels. eddie is sure that rich gets it though, understands him and his sometimes awkward ways. understands that eddie loves him, much more than he's ever loved someone before and would probably ever love someone. although he might not have known as quickly as rich, he did know it was true and that there really wasn't anyone else he'd rather spend his ridiculous life with. ❫
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he tries to time his breathing with the sound of the waves outside and relaxes in the cool night breeze as he leans back into rich, tilting his head just enough that they might kiss properly in this position. god— he'd never get enough of this and perhaps that was for the best.
after all, love had always been a little harder for eddie to completely understand. harder to grasp since the "love" he had experienced before rich had been so grossly one-sided. sometimes he still worries that he lacks certain qualities that make him worthy of being loved so deeply by someone. sometimes he worries that he isn't giving near enough back or that he might come off distant as he tries to navigate how to express how he feels. eddie is sure that rich gets it though, understands him and his sometimes awkward ways. understands that eddie loves him, much more than he's ever loved someone before and would probably ever love someone. although he might not have known as quickly as rich, he did know it was true and that there really wasn't anyone else he'd rather spend his ridiculous life with. ❫