[ richie hates this. he hates crying, especially in front of other people. but the feeling of eddie's thumb brushing tears off his cheek, the touch of his palm against richie's skin, makes new - no, old - memories tumble through his brain so fast they're blurry.
they're sixteen, and bowers called him a faggot again and this time richie can't hide how much it hurts but eddie is there, holding him and kissing his tears away with promises of leaving this town together someday. ]
Eddie, [ he repeats, not knowing what else to say. his voice is weak but he holds on to the other man tighter now, as if he'll disappear if richie lets go. ] I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry --
[ they tell the others one day and everyone laughs at them because they've been so fucking obvious, but later on richie can't help crying about it because he'd been so afraid they would all hate him, so scared they would cast him out the way he knows his parents will if they ever figure out what he really is.
he's trying not to cry but he breaks down anyway, sobs building in his chest until he's hanging on to eddie for support just as much as he's holding the other man up. ]
I forgot you, I fucking -- I forgot fucking everything, what the fuck?!
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they're sixteen, and bowers called him a faggot again and this time richie can't hide how much it hurts but eddie is there, holding him and kissing his tears away with promises of leaving this town together someday. ]
Eddie, [ he repeats, not knowing what else to say. his voice is weak but he holds on to the other man tighter now, as if he'll disappear if richie lets go. ] I'm sorry, I'm so fucking sorry --
[ they tell the others one day and everyone laughs at them because they've been so fucking obvious, but later on richie can't help crying about it because he'd been so afraid they would all hate him, so scared they would cast him out the way he knows his parents will if they ever figure out what he really is.
he's trying not to cry but he breaks down anyway, sobs building in his chest until he's hanging on to eddie for support just as much as he's holding the other man up. ]
I forgot you, I fucking -- I forgot fucking everything, what the fuck?!