[ richie doesn't want to remember any more. as soon as the image of what he'd done - the feeling of what he'd done - comes back to him, he instantly regrets ever trying to figure it out.
why that? of all things, why did it have to be that?! ]
No. [ the answer comes out instinctively, without thought. he shakes his head, just a little at first, then more violently. ] No, I didn't - I can't remember anything. This is stupid.
[ he stands up abruptly and moves to the sink to wash his hands, pointedly looking anywhere but at eddie. try as he might to push the memory away, it fights to stay at the front of his brain, as though determined to make itself known - to force richie to acknowledge the fact that it really happened.
they're kids, and they don't know anything, and richie doesn't think or speak before he's kissing eddie, sudden and awkward and just for a second but it's a kiss nonetheless.
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why that? of all things, why did it have to be that?! ]
No. [ the answer comes out instinctively, without thought. he shakes his head, just a little at first, then more violently. ] No, I didn't - I can't remember anything. This is stupid.
[ he stands up abruptly and moves to the sink to wash his hands, pointedly looking anywhere but at eddie. try as he might to push the memory away, it fights to stay at the front of his brain, as though determined to make itself known - to force richie to acknowledge the fact that it really happened.
they're kids, and they don't know anything, and richie doesn't think or speak before he's kissing eddie, sudden and awkward and just for a second but it's a kiss nonetheless.
it's his first kiss. ]