I know that, but how the fuck am I supposed to be serious about this. I've wanted this for-

[Well, forever, but he was scared and he doesn't move away from Eddie like he would have as a kid. He shifts into him instead, hoping for some support and guidance for the things he didn't know how to process.]

I'm worried it's too soon or - y'know too close after the shit with Myra, I don't want to be associated with that shit. I just, it's not like we can just pick up where we left off. I want this to work. Even if it means going slow at the expense of my own dick.